Unexpected

My mind is on auto pilot and there is a short in the system

Prepare the runway for my crash landing

I'm coming in fast and my outcome doesn't look well at all

I just drift with the air current

The days pass

Waiting for me to burn in the yesterdays that are below me.

Your eyes

I see a galaxy in your eyes

sparkling through

But then there's that black hole in your soul

Sucking the life out of anything near

I tend to my wounds

How do you mend something that isn't physical there?

I will just let my heart gape open

Leaking a trail of blood as I walk around the world in a zombie like state.

People stare

But that's beyond what I care about these days

Maybe you can be in the realms of the little I do still care about

I imagine myself diving into a lake

Hidden deep in the forest

Sink down to the bottom

Come up to the surface refreshed

Renewed.

Put a Chain around my neck because that's the only way you will hold me down.

I'm at high risk of disappearing

As quickly as I came

I'm gone

Never to be seen again

Sure, you might think of me time to time

Pass somewhere that holds meaning.

But the memories will fade out with the lost connection

I'll just keeping doing what I do

To live will be my only goal.

I was born not to worry

So I will continue on with this vagabond life

All the people I connect with along the way

I will absorb anything I can learn from you

Teach me

Roses

A rain drop forms at the tip of the branch

Bubbling up until it gets ready to burst and fall to the ground

Time steals away your loved ones when you turn around

All you have left is a empty shell of what used to be

Empty rooms

Empty beds

A closet full of clothing that no longer has a owner

A fate of becoming ashes in a box is unavoidable

Run run run

Time chases you down with greedy eyes

It only hurts if you let it

Curl up in the fetal position

Embrace the sharp stabbing sensation

This is how I live

Bones, how I love them

I have fallen into a dream again

Can you please throw me a rope to escape?

Remember that white picket fence that surrounded our yard?

It is now rotted and crumbling

Just like our love

The roses have passed their season.

We both must split ways now

Find a new garden

Fly with me?

We could take off and never look back

My name is irrelevant

Velvet Hillsides

My thoughts were murdered, now I struggle to find replacements

Sitting there listen to lies formulated by your lips

I'm tired, your tired

I cringe and my eyes become dull

The land seemed to be covered in green velvet.

I hiked several hours that early morning.

The sun challenged me to a race to the top of the hill.

I won

Now I sit and wait for the light to meet up with me again

My bare skin is tickled as I lay back on to the grass

Outstretched

Laying here stuck in the limbo of awake and sleep

the battle begins

That is where I create and my words link together to mean something, anything

This is where I find peace

sleep or wide awake, who's going to win

sleep tugs at my mind, close your eyes and come with me

Forget about the living world , you don't need them

Sleep is always lonely

sleep kidnaps me at night until I escape it's dreams and nightmares coming into the morning

Wake up

another day is here

the days start blurring together and the rain keeps pouring

everyone stays inside, but I go out

Embrace the wet cold

let it soak my hair and pour down my face and body

my tears blend in when it's like this

Wild Soul

The grey clouds snarl and spit rain at me

Keep me grounded, I'm a kite whipping around in the ocean winds

Tug on my line as I try to escape.

I need my thoughts to be strong right now

But I need my words to be even stronger

You let the river dry up a long time ago and all that's left is a rock bed and now you have to sleep in it

Life is..

　

Life is ...
Agony, discomfort, prosperity and thriving

We all float around this world with irrelevant goals and hopes

Only to be buried in the dirt after time catches up

I'm going to dig my way out

Rise up with bloody fingers from scratching open my wooden casket

Life is... a lot of things

To you it's "this" and to me it's "that"

Different paths

Same ending

Similar meaning

Pocket Map

Take the world and fold it up small like a map

Put it in your pocket and save it for later.

Paging myself to the present

I've been gone a long while

The wires must be crossed

The towers communicate back and forth

Static

Interference distorts what's around me

My eyes flicker up and down with Black and white dots

I raise my hands towards the sky in hopes of catching a signal more clear.

Can you Hear me?

                                                        

Filed Away under Timeless

The breeze blows violently
My mind tips over and spills
Rush to scope up my memories off the cluttered floor
Stuff them back into my head carefully
Keep them fresh and organized
So I can go pull them out and visit them easily
Flip through the files with your fingertips
Stop at L for Love
Continue on to T for timeless
I can't help but smile after reliving it briefly
I revisited a moment where nothing mattered but the strong gaze between our eyes
Hand in hand, the waves are crashing all around us, but I know I'm safe here
I don't want to leave, Grip onto this moment forever
Everything around us is in movement, we are as still and solid as statues engraved into time
I come back to, reality sinks back in, as well as that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach
The world may be crumbling but I still have my memories to among

Airport

The airport was so cold, so impersonal.

But deep down that's the reason I like it here.

Surrounded by people but no obligations to connect

Muffled voices of the surrounding crowds comfort me

Everyone here is so different yet so the same

The sounds of heels and dress shoes hitting the terminal floor

Rushing by , always in a hurry.

The whiff of Cologne that reminds you of a moment from the past.

It tingles my noise and awakens my senses.

Numbers, times flash across the blue illuminated board

Connect me to my next flight

I'm gone

The present is slipping , slide down the back of your throat
Only to be digested.
Choke on the beat of the song that you sway your body to.
Recharge
Up rise
Let your mind drift and your perception become altered
Let your hair hang over your face to shield those piercing eyes.
So sharp
How can someone so warm have such cold eyes.
Look them up and down, let their bodies become chilled
Frozen in time.
Put up a display rope around them and let others come to learn from their mistakes.
The museum of failure at your service.
Vibrate my mind , shapes are so solid
Molecules moving around a million miles per second.
The illusion of science
Day dream
Come back to reality.
See something out of the corner of your eye
But turn to find nothing
Never alone
Or am I?
World of fake
When I want the life of real.
Forecast
Rainy with a side of surprise
Running
Run faster
Each foot lifts from the ground as it pushes away the earth.
I can fly
Who needs love really, I can fly on my own.
Fight instinct
It only gets in the way and crowds your mind
Pushing
Shoving
Less fighting
More peace
Peace
I sit on a lone rock by the lake with my legs crossed underneath me
The sky is deep blue with glitter splattered across it
The mountains are a dark boarder of the horizon
I sit with a clear mind and a unclear understanding on things
Lift them up , organize them and return to me.
I raise my hands
Reaching out to the unknown
I grasp air between my finger tips
I close my hands tight but they are empty
This alternative reality tips back and forth
Fluent movement
Where I become one with myself
Control
Control my life, my body, my mind
Then let me rip it all to shreds just to start fresh and free.
The red and white bloody cells float gracefully around inside my veins
My spirit is in there as well
Swimming ,
Pumping through my veins
Some may say I'm different
But I've become okay with this
Why be a clone, a robot of sorts
When I can be me.
Lean back, touch your head to the ground behind you
Contort
Strain
See the bones that create my body
Enclosed by my flesh
I run through the tall grass, grabbing hand fulls of flowers along the way
I screech to a sudden stop with my toes hanging over the cliff side
Dirt and rocks break away and free fall down .
Love
Compassion
Why does it hide?
Two people
Only two?
Billions of people inhabit this planet and you can only choose one?
Connect
Connect, like you've never connected to any other human being before
Trust
Have faith that this person has pure intentions
After being taught that no one ever has pure intentions
We are human after all.
Push away
Do you come back?
Turning point, moment of truth
Lifetime of truth
Truth, honesty
What's that?
The only way to judge is by action
The lips only lie
The words jump off the tip of your tongue into the moment.
Let the brain process it and produce actions

The Moth And the Butterfly

It's just me and this huge tree out here in the open field. The mountains and other trees keep their distance in the background.
The clouds float lazily overhead watching.
The grasses sway back and forth just like a mind pondering a important decision.
A moth lands on the grass next to me, she is envious of the colorful butterfly that is perched upon the lowest tree branch fluttering it's wings in the sunlight.
I sit there envious as well, but of the towering tree
so strong and solid, yet alone.
roots deep into the ground, it's not going anywhere.
the true commitment
Stay grounded or die.
I sigh, the moth sighs.
Wishes of beauty and strength flood the air.

Words

I own nothing, yet have everything

Every foot step pushes the sand into a foot shaped pattern.

Take a bucket full and pour it into an hourglass

Turn it over and watch the sand transform to time right before your vibrant eyes.

Look causally away, ignore what you see and grow old.

Some days it easier to play the role of being naive

Stuff is more simple this way, and after all you can't blame yourself if you didn't know any better.

But you did know better, They see through you like a window left open in the storm, we all see it.

Your sweet words dissolve like sugar in the rain

Turning into nothing and sliding down the drains never to be heard again.

The lies echo from the sewage tunnels, muffled in the murky green water of trash and grime.

As they drown the words fade and we can scrub our minds clean once again.

The world goes Blind

Leaving, leaving, always leaving

There she goes again skipping through the woods dodging trees and leaping over the poison plants

Nipping the tail of her dreams.

People flood this earth

No land left untouched, no hand left unhealed.

Building, building, always building

They build their mansions on the hill side for others to look up at and envy.

But we know what really goes on behind those double french doors

Pour me a latte

I don't even like the taste but I will tighten my lips and suffer through it just to fit in.

Seeing, seeing, Nobody is seeing

the whole world acts like they had their eyes scratched out

The infection grows, infect my mind, infect my life

Then sell me the antidote at a steep unreachable price.

Interstate of Dreams

Flowing down the interstate like it's a river

Lines fly by like fish headed upstream

Rain drops tip toe across my windshield.

I want this freedom

No, I've earned this freedom.

The road climbs up the gigantic mountain

The storm festers up top just waiting for my arrival.

Green signs give names to the unknown places.

They really are meaningless if you don't have a destination in mind.

Challenges, spontaneous moments and fulfillment live here.

As do I.

A Dollar & Some Change

Eyes welled up

Don't suppress it, pull the knife out.

Watch your wound bleed.

Bodies wear out

loved ones die

life changes.

mourn, because it's the most rational thing to do in a irrational world.

Don't drown the pain with distractions

Sit and soak in it like a soothing bath.

You can't live in a dream world.

Do you dig in your heels and hold onto the past? No.

Keep your feet out of the dirt and embrace a new normal.

whisper to me softly into the night while the rain pelts the windows

Summer turns to fall , the leafs crumple and show off their gold proudly.

The humidity in the air sticks to my lungs and weighs me down

After all , these are just observations

A single black bird grabbing the breeze with his wings , gliding around in circles.

You wish you were up there with him, but your not

Your stuck down here

You better stack your wood pile tall and plentiful

The winter can be rough and unforgiving